Aug 4, 2017

Distractions

So this week we learned just how upset I can get if I'm consistently distracted by some asshole who wants access to the property to do maintenance work, but doesn't first get proof of approval for the work to be done. No dude, I'm not going to let you in here unless you have a reason to be here that is okayed by the right people, you're literally a stranger on my doorstep with no prior warning or appointment. Give me fucking strength. It's hard enough staying on-task without having some random guy come and pester you in your home for two days straight. I'm hoping I've got it sorted now and he can do his work and then go away, never to be seen again. I'm getting super frustrated with the amount of spanners in the works when I'm honestly just trying to do really big things here in my own life. Oh well. I'm doing the best I can.

I got an interesting message today, so it's not all bad news. I might have an opportunity on the horizon, simply because I had the courage to put my hand up about something. We will see where it leads I guess. Bear with me today, as I'm pretty short-fused as a result of being pushed and provoked too much this morning. On a positive note, I had started to really feel like shit this week, and I think I've at least resolved that with my specialist. I wonder what it's like to wake up in the morning and have your body do what it's told without having to do all of this extra work? Idk, I mean I guess I don't care so much, but it would be nice if those that did wake up like that could not assume that everyone wakes up that way. I'm rambling. I'll get to my point.

Despite constant struggles and challenges this week, I'm still on the right path and there are a few good opportunities on my horizon, which may end up being fruitful with a bit of perseverance and a hell of a lot of luck. Here's hoping.

I'm honestly looking forward to the weekend for once. I've felt so down and unmotivated this week, I'm crossing my fingers that will lift over the weekend and allow me to keep going with my goals. Plus, I have a few meet-ups here and there to look forward to.

There's a million other things on my mind, but not much else is relevant, so I'll leave it out. I'm wondering about a few things with friends and where that will go, but I think things are on-track for now. I can't wait for this stage of my life to be better resolved and be at my next checkpoint for things achieved. There's so much going on right now in general with work, the house, just everything. I want less talk and more action!

No comments: